WTF This Just Happened
I knew if I was going to get into this lifestyle I wanted long-term but with the most ideal and yet handsome man. Therefore, I went on a few more dates never going all the way with rich men from the site. I did find myself experiencing BDSM with a guy a few times. Now that was interesting.. never had sex but always explored things you read in 50 shades of gray. This was my first time ever and it was with someone I barely knew! Crazy, was I changing and allowing my curiosity to overcome my morals? Or was I simply exploring my sexuality for me?
In the meantime, I was quickly hired at a high-end salon in Chandler, Arizona. I had the best schedule ever for a 21-year-old. I worked Wednesday - Saturday usually starting around noon or 2 PM and off at 9 PM. Plus when you’re 21 your hangovers are slim to none. haha oh boy, now it’s a 3-day hangover for me! I worked hard when I was on shift and made decent money just starting out. I had little to no overhead since I lived with my uncle for free.
A few months pass and I was invited one night to watch a Pacquiao fight at a fancy house in Scottsdale. A lot of people showed up and I found myself enjoying the night and meeting new acquaintances. Into the night the main host would check in with me to make sure I was having a good time. He was adored by everyone, dressed classy, and had these rich blue eyes that pulled you at the moment you made eye contact. Oh boy, eye contact... the quote “eye intensity can communicate lots of things” is REAL! I know at least once in your life you met someone and looked in their eyes and felt their true intentions or vibration of connection. I had this same eye contact connection with the host of the party though I ignored it at all costs.
About a month later he invited me to a different party with his friends. However when I showed the front house lights were out. I asked if they were still at the house and if I had the right address. He said, “ yes, we are all in the back around the pool.” When I entered the house, I noticed right away he was walking toward me. The second he got to me he grabbed me, one hand around my waist and the other on the back of my head. He leaned into me and before a word could get out of my mouth, his lips were on mine. I felt instantly shocked, sick, lustful, and secure all at once. What was he thinking? Clearly, he lured me into a night of bad decisions that would haunt me for the next few years to come…